I’m going to be completely honest with you guys. I have an exam in fourteen hours. I should be revising…or sleeping. I’m going to be honest with you guys, again. I don’t have a topic in mind. As I’m writing right now, I don’t know how this post is going to end. I just feel so much better when I’m typing these things. This blog has given me so much in such a short period of time. I can vent, I can express, I can shout without making a sound, I can get everything out without hurting anyone. It’s addicting to a point. I’m procrastinating from revision for an exam that I have later today and I love it.
There are probably a lot of you people who feel the same way at times. You don’t distract yourself because the distraction is so appealing, you do it deliberately because in the spur of the moment, you just want to leave your life behind. And maybe it will mean chaos when you get back to it. But for that short amount of time, you couldn’t care less. You feel free.
Well, for me, that place is here. To anyone reading this, you are my safe haven when I need it most. I made a post about finding a Place of Escape. An actual physical location to go to to wind down to appreciate the world. They’re amazing, I hope you’ve found yours. But being here, being heard by you people has given me more relief and satisfaction than I have felt in a long time. I finally feel like my thoughts mean something and you guys are the reason for it. You people, with your social anxiety, depression, whatever, you people have made this pathetic person’s life so much better in just two months. I hope you’re reading this post thoroughly because the next time you think you’re good for nothing, remember (even though it may not seem like much), you saved me. I appreciate myself more because of you, you’ve given me reason to believe in myself and I thank you so much for it.
I want to talk more about you guys next time. I know right now, very few people read these posts, but message me or comment what I can talk about. Maybe something you feel and you want to know if I feel it, too. Or if you’re having a problem, I might be able to give some insight (I’m not a doctor, so don’t expect medical advice!) I just want to help all of you. I really want to make your day better. Then, at the very least, we’ll be even.
Good night, you potatoes. Enjoy the cocoa. 🙂